Singled out

Ever be with a group of people and still feel completely alone? I do. Oddly I live off attention, I do so so many things just to get it. I make friends easily, and generally I'm easy to get along with, I know many people and talk to them as well. But yet I'm still alone. I get that empty feeling inside even when everyone is paying attention to me. I don't understand why I'm like this, I love attention but I hate it. A year ago I was happy, I was always around the same small group of people, but it seems that the more attention I get from a larger group of people the less happy I am. But I'm drawn to large groups...It seems like a horrible cycle to me. I don't know where I'm going with this, I don't know how to solve it. I want to be left alone but still get attention...Complicated? Yes.

-Matt