Procras...I'll finish the title later

You'd think I'd learn after a couple years that procrastination is a terrible terrible thing. But I keep doing it, I'll put off a report until the day before it's due and spend the entire night before just getting it done.

I'm a little distracted today, my kitty was put down. Sure she was 15 years old and she was getting quite sick. But I still miss her...

-Matt

Done

Erin,

I've left you alone for close to a year.

I've not talked to you for almost a year.

I've not even so much as posted anything that could be taken as insulting towards you for the better part of a year.

yet you insult me to my friends? I would say that you lied to them yet I'm sure that in this time that you've convinced yourself that you were the only person wronged.

You say that I broke the conditions first yet fail to identify what these are. Because as far as I can tell the only "condition" that I violated was the fact that I chose not to agree with what you've done. Don't you find it strange at all that you essentially broke up with your three best friends of old because of nearly the same reasons? They didn't feel sorry that you were torn between two guys at the same time, and I told you that you shouldn't date someone when you still had feelings for another. Granted I did go further than that and say that you shouldn't date Nathan. Although when you have someone call you on the phone crying each time they break up, and then show up at your work 2 hours before the end of your shift causing you to leave early...Can you blame me?

The fact that you refused to actually talk to me in person when the original argument took place told me then that you didn't want to resolve it. I accept that. The fact that you refuse any confrontation now shows me that you don't want others to doubt your story and that you don't have the confidence that what you've been telling yourself is even true. This I don't accept.

You crossed a line Erin, I find it odd that you say I'm the bitter one when you're the one that attempts to mislead MY friends. No Erin I don't hold grudges, I rarely care about something I get mad about more than a few days. This among other things speaks to me as to how little you actually did know me. Repetitive unjust or unprovoked actions towards me will anger me quickly and hold it for a while but I let go of it quickly after venting about it.

You were right about one thing though, I don't miss you. Not because I'm bitter, not because I'm angry, but because it achieves nothing and does me no good. You are among few that dislikes me because of what reasons you have. And anyone that does know me even slightly also knows that they aren't true.

I really do wish the best for you now. I just hope you learn that mistreating others is not a good way to keep going. Eventually Erin you'll have to learn that no one is always going to agree with you, and friends aren't there to agree with you all the time, they're the ones that tell you that you've screwed up, they're the ones that you trust to be honest with you not just people you go to for pity when you think things are unfair.

-Matt

To whom it may concern

It's been close to a year since we've last talked or seen each other, To me you were pretty much water under the bridge. Sure I thought back from time to time and sure I still have pictures kicking around that made me wonder how you were doing. But for the most part you just weren't there, and most thoughts were met with neutrality.

Ah but how things can change...I find it odd that you say I'm the one that stays bitter about everything. Yet poetic justice demands that I be punished, or maybe just spite.

It's funny how I seem to remember each time you broke up with someone you "loved". You absolutely "hated" them. Well for the first day, then you wanted them back, but then you hated them again. I seem to also remember on several occasions being asked to beat them up by none other than yourself because they were such horrid awful people that had hurt you. I didn't ever hit anyone for you, I've never hit anyone out of anger and I never will. I didn't think it was right to do so and had told you on many occasions. That's because of my morals...

Remember those? The ones that apparently I use so I can see myself as "better" than everyone else, "as dictated by you". Saying nothing about common decency, just throw that out the window. And just forget about helping others in any sort of need because that doesn't matter either. Everything in life is about staying happy, no matter how many people you have to step on to get there. Ever think maybe that was why I didn't agree with you dating the guy from Lacombe? Possibly because you still had feelings for someone else and were just using him as a rebound? No, it's because I'm controlling I guess. So controlling that I never once made you do anything you didn't want to do. So controlling that even when I didn't want to do something that you wanted me to I still would without comment because you asked. At this point I will bring up a certain green shirt and pink tie that I wore that I really didn't want to. I did that because I was willing to make concessions for other people especially on one of their special days, though I don't expect you to know much about that.

And you know, it's one thing to know your faults and another thing entirely to be proud of them. Vanity is hardly something to be admired, some might even say that being so absorbed with yourself might be a bad thing...

Oh and in a couple weeks when you're celebrating your one year, be happy, be ever so happy that I was wrong. Despite that I stated that "he needs to grow up before anything can happen" so sure things could work out for you as long as you both knew what you wanted and didn't keep breaking up. So yes Erin, I was wrong...

-Matt