To whom it may concern

It's been close to a year since we've last talked or seen each other, To me you were pretty much water under the bridge. Sure I thought back from time to time and sure I still have pictures kicking around that made me wonder how you were doing. But for the most part you just weren't there, and most thoughts were met with neutrality.

Ah but how things can change...I find it odd that you say I'm the one that stays bitter about everything. Yet poetic justice demands that I be punished, or maybe just spite.

It's funny how I seem to remember each time you broke up with someone you "loved". You absolutely "hated" them. Well for the first day, then you wanted them back, but then you hated them again. I seem to also remember on several occasions being asked to beat them up by none other than yourself because they were such horrid awful people that had hurt you. I didn't ever hit anyone for you, I've never hit anyone out of anger and I never will. I didn't think it was right to do so and had told you on many occasions. That's because of my morals...

Remember those? The ones that apparently I use so I can see myself as "better" than everyone else, "as dictated by you". Saying nothing about common decency, just throw that out the window. And just forget about helping others in any sort of need because that doesn't matter either. Everything in life is about staying happy, no matter how many people you have to step on to get there. Ever think maybe that was why I didn't agree with you dating the guy from Lacombe? Possibly because you still had feelings for someone else and were just using him as a rebound? No, it's because I'm controlling I guess. So controlling that I never once made you do anything you didn't want to do. So controlling that even when I didn't want to do something that you wanted me to I still would without comment because you asked. At this point I will bring up a certain green shirt and pink tie that I wore that I really didn't want to. I did that because I was willing to make concessions for other people especially on one of their special days, though I don't expect you to know much about that.

And you know, it's one thing to know your faults and another thing entirely to be proud of them. Vanity is hardly something to be admired, some might even say that being so absorbed with yourself might be a bad thing...

Oh and in a couple weeks when you're celebrating your one year, be happy, be ever so happy that I was wrong. Despite that I stated that "he needs to grow up before anything can happen" so sure things could work out for you as long as you both knew what you wanted and didn't keep breaking up. So yes Erin, I was wrong...

-Matt